You have been lazy but loving, fought everything but why give up now just because you are tired by everything. You do need a break, some rest but you don't need to give up. You were brought up lovingly so that you can achieve all that you desire to make your parents happy, to keep yourself happy. So it’s time get up and start your battle. You are capable enough to win and be happy. Trust yourself as I trust you will definitely one day reach high if you work and aim high.